Goodbye

Today I should be enjoying being 22 weeks pregnant. Instead I am attending a memorial service to finally say goodbye to our baby boy.

Goodbye
Baby boy
I had dreamt of our future together
Sunny moments like Polaroids flashing before my closed eyes.

Goodbye
Baby boy
I had such plans for our future together
A room of your own decorated with joy and boundless love.

Goodbye
Baby boy
I had prepared for our future together
Lying awake as you fluttered inside me.

Goodbye
Baby boy
I still yearn for our future together
There’s an empty place in my heart for our unwritten story.

Goodbye
Baby boy.

40 Comments

  1. sending you and your family all our love…..

  2. So beautiful. I love that you have written this and had a memorial service – too many people push it under the rug as if it never happened. I wish you the best in your journeys.

  3. That is such a beautiful post. Someone said to me the other day, that there will always be a little angel watching over you now. I thought it was a special way of thinking about it. So much love to you and your family…

  4. Oh Christie, I just have no words to express how sorry I am. Peace to you.

  5. I am so sorry for your loss. Thankyou for sharing your beautiful words with us xx

  6. Aspiring Mum says:

    May you and your family know peace at this time.x

  7. The Handmaden says:

    All the best, take care.

  8. Narelle Nettelbeck says:

    I hope you guys find God's peace to help you through this sad time.
    xox

  9. Provocations for Early Childhood Education says:

    Dear Christie,

    My heart breaks for you and your family. I cannot imagine such a loss. I thank you for sharing your sorrow with your readers, and for your beautiful and loving farewell to your son.

    As an early childhood educator I have twice in the past 10 years worked with families who have lost their little ones during gestation and/or just after birth. I hope that I was able to offer some support, a soft shoulder to cry on and strong arms to hug them.

    I know that their journey toward healing was not easy, and the loss is not something they will ever get over, but I do know that now years later both families have found closure and welcomed new additions to their families. Both received amazing support from their churches, families and from support groups that deal specifically with the loss of a child.

    I wish you and your family the same journey of recovery. I think the way you chose to celebrate your unborn son, is one great step towards that end.

    Sending good thoughts and positive energy your way.

  10. PaisleyJade says:

    All my love and prayers. oxox

  11. I'm so sorry.

  12. Hope the sun shone and gave you a beautiful day for you goodbye. Such a lovely poem and beautiful sentiments *hugs*

  13. Tammy James says:

    hugs Christie, simply heartfelt cyber hugs are all I can offer. My heart breaks a little for you each time I read your words regarding the family's loss.

  14. Love, peace, joy. I wish these all for you Christie. I am so incredibly sorry for this loss and thank you again for sharing your journey so courageously.

  15. Love to you and all your family. Farewell beautiful little boy. xo

  16. anjwritesabout.com says:

    Like the others, sending you my love and warmth for all of you right now. xoxo

  17. Spiralmumma says:

    Much love to you xx

  18. So sorry for your loss. What a beautiful poem, and I think it's a great idea for a memorial service too. Thinking of you………

  19. We share this loss with you my darling girl but yours is the greatest loss. Our thoughts are always with you and I am so glad you were able to say a final goodbye which hopefully will help to bring closure to such a tragic time. xxx

  20. Super Sarah says:

    Sending you love and prayers. xx

  21. So Sorry!:((

  22. I'm so sorry. xxx

  23. Dear Christie,

    I saw a link to your blog, and I thought I'd come over and say hi, and tell you how nice it was to meet you last week.

    Then I read this post ….. your words are achingly beautiful. I am so incredibly sorry, I want you to know that I'm thinking of you and your family, sending you some love.

    Hopefully we can meet up again one day.

    -eden

  24. •´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• says:

    (hugs) I love the last lines , so poignant & true every day.
    Love & strength to you & your family on this journey, if you ever need to talk …

    "I still yearn for our future together
    There's an empty place in my heart for our unwritten story."

  25. Deborah (Teach Preschool) says:

    I am also sending you my warmest thoughts and hoping you find peace in a time of sadness.

  26. Darling girl, I'm so very sorry about your precious and much loved son xxxx

  27. Sending you thoughts and love xo

  28. Thank you for sharing this. It is beautiful, in all its sorrow. I'm thinking of you and your family today as your memorialize your baby boy's all-too-brief life.

  29. ImaginationPlay says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

  30. ImaginationPlay says:

    I am so sorry for your loss.

  31. I am so sorry for your loss. I have had 2 miscarriages in a row. I would wake up take a bath, then lay naked at the top of my stairs laying next to the cat not wanting to go down stairs and get on with life. I ate a lot of chocolate, shed tears then life got easier after a while. You are in my prayers.

  32. My thoughts are with you and your family during this time.

  33. This is beautiful, and I am so, so sorry.

  34. Busy Brissy Mum says:

    A very sad day Christie. Sending love and prayers to you and your family.

  35. divaskychick says:

    So terribly sad for you. Thank you for being so brave to post. Wishing you peace.

  36. Jackie H. says:

    Praying for you in this difficult time!

  37. Philippa, Neevah and Liam says:

    My thoughts are with you and your family during this time xx

  38. It must have been so difficult to write this post, you're so brave and I'm sure it wil help other mums in your situation. Sending you and your family all my love.

  39. Lovely sentiments in your poem Christie – my thoughts are with you and your family.

  40. Dear Christie and Family,
    So sorry to read about the loss of your little boy xxx We all wish that we could take away the heartache that you are feeling xxx
    Love, hugs and kisses from your friend Rachael and Family xxooxxoo

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