I don’t know about you but I have always found that music can be a powerful reflection of mood and emotion, and that particular songs can trigger memories, especially in relation to situations where strong emotions, like grief or intense joy, were experienced.
Ever since we lost our baby, I have been searching for a musical connection. That one song which connects to where I am, now, in this moment of bewildering loss. At first I thought it might be an old favourite, In the Arms of the Angel by Sarah McLachlan. I have loved this song ever since the City of Angels movie came out and though it says so much which I feel now, it wasn’t THE song. I felt the same about k.d. lang’s Hallelujah and Israel Kamakawiwo’ole’s version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow. As much as I love them both, they still weren’t IT.
And then today, as we started driving to the memorial service, IT came on the radio in the car. A song which I already have powerful associations with as it was played at the funeral of a friend who died in a motor vehicle accident when I was a teenager. When I heard it again today, for the first time in a long time, I knew that this song, these lyrics, this ballad, was the one which continues to speak to me most about loss. That this would be THE song.
The soundtrack of my day today and many days still to come.
Do you have a special connection with a particular song or piece of music? Do you find music triggers memories or emotions?